Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Being Content with What I Have and What I Can Do

You know, I didn't undertake a word/theme this new year. And while goal-oriented, I'm managing to reach work goals, but because my work is both so emotionally rewarding and so demanding right now, I'm giving myself a break on the personal goals. The problem is, my work is EMOTIONALLY rewarding, but not financially (yet). I'm hoping this improve for us financially eventually . . . . but for right now, our family is broke because of living separately due to the bad economy. So we're trying to dog paddle . . . keep our heads above water.

Because of all the financial and family stress, and so much of our lives out of our control, I'm focusing on using my personal time to relax, enjoy and unwind. For once, I'm giving myself a bit of freedom and slack to just BE during my limited time off. Also am relieved that the spinning wheel and weaving equipment mode that haunted me last year has eased off quite a bit in the past 5-6 months, largely because I no longer have the chance to obsess about new equipment, and no longer have the time or money to pursue the perfect wheel or loom. Instead, I'm just enjoying what I have and appreciating every spare moment I have to do crafts of any kind.

The spinning is still the most enjoyable thing in the world! I no longer even PRETEND I'll finish a dozen projects in a year. Heck, I'll be happy to finish one or two completed projects the whole year of 2012 -- the current project is a sweater from my handspun yarn. But even if I never finish it, just spinning and knitting on it has been an utter joy. It doesn't get any better than that - just spin, knit, admire and breathe deep.


Jules said...

Good for you Chelle! I think you deserve to relax and just enjoy your life! You are such a sweetheart and such a good friend! Please know you are so important to me and you have been such a joy and inspiration to me over the last few years! I miss spending time with you but I know even if we don't see each other much or talk as much, you will always be a very dear and close friend!!! Thank you!


ChelleC said...

Hi Julie, love you too! You mean so much to me. I amended (edited) my post a bit - explaining that while I'm making a bit of time to relax - things are very stressful, financially. Living apart is costly and lonely. But I'm trying to make some time to do crafts to relieve the stress. if that makes sense? We're dog paddling . . . not swimming, but I think many families are facing similar difficult circumstances and survival seems to be the goal.

Tiddy and Charlie. said...

Glad you are enjoying your knitting/spinning now. It is so easy to get behind on self imposed deadlines, and thewn feel bad about something that is upposed to be a pleasure. Hope things pick up financially very soon for you c x

Rebecca said...

<3 +++
i'm so glad you are able to let go and just enjoy the process in your crafting life.
i hope all your hard work devotion and sacrifice start payin goff soon.