Sunday, October 01, 2006

Getting the Mental Lead Out

Since this move, I've been SO disorganized and having trouble finding things I need. So much is stashed away in the storage locker that I can't easily get to. I'm resisting the urge to go out and re-buy things I know I have. Like my curling iron. Like my journal. Like the little cable that lets me download pictures from my digital camera onto this blog. That's one reason I haven't blogged much, because there's lot of stuff I'd like to show you, but no way of transmitting it (yet).

On a pleasant note, Aunt Eve (picture to follow later) has been in town this weekend and she's done a lot to reduce the tension around here and help us appreciate our new home. Frankly, this house has been more of a hassle than a pleasure so far, and I'm not sure how worth it the move has been. I'm not being very positive right now!!! But her sunny, fun personality has helped me see that perhaps I'm just experiencing a huge wave of change and I may need a few more weeks to mentally "settle in." Her career was interior design, so she's given us some ideas for decorating. She's also given me a mental push to just GET RID OF even more stuff to make way for a more roomy existence instead of just collecting and bringing more clutter in here from our storage locker.

My friend Patricia has also encouraged me to do that. She has been reading a Feng Shu book, called, "Clear Your Clutter With Feng Shui" and it says that the clutter you keep in your life, especially that stuff from your long ago past, is literally holding past memories and "shit" into your current life. As hard as it is, you sometimes just need to release and let go. I tend to hold onto things - possessions, sentimental objects, things I MIGHT use someday (but probably seldom if ever will). I also hold onto past pain, hurt, resentment -- and when too much of that emotional crap gets built up, it just makes me snappy, bitchy and overreactive about everything. Like a case of terminal PMS, and I think that's what I'm mentally and emotionally in right now. The least little thing is setting me off.

I really need to emotionally cleanse myself and get the YUCK out of my mind and heart. Whatever you focus on in life really does increase and expand, so I need to focus on what I want to see MORE OF in my life.

The blurb for this books says, "Drawing on the success of her first book, Creating Sacred Space with Feng Shui, Karen Kingston has met popular demand by expanding on the indispensable activity of clearing clutter. There is very little of actual Feng Shui here, and certainly nothing you can't get elsewhere, but the clutter problem gets full and complete treatment. Kingston reminds us that clutter is stuck energy that keeps you stuck in undesirable life patterns. Therefore, you can "sort out your life by sorting out your junk." Kingston covers the reasons we keep things as well as the amazing stories of people who have cleared their clutter away. More than just junk, clutter is all those things that have negative symbology and that collect stagnant energy. This latter can also apply to bodily, emotional, and spiritual clutter, all of which Kingston describes with characteristic passion. In an age of accumulation, it's good to see a book that frees up life again.

I am going out today and buying that book!!!!!

1 comment:

Elysbeth said...

I love that book! It's very true and yet, still gentle, in how it phrases things. Check your library. It's a read it in in life stages book. You'll read it once and do some big stuff. Check it out again in 6-9 months, and find stuff you didn't read the first time (where does it come from). And in a couple of years, you'll think...didn't I read a clutter book? And find brand new stuff. I find if I buy books like that I get so tired of looking at them on my shelf, that I "forget" why I have them to begin with. Even books I really enjoy. I think it's because "well, it's right there if I decide to read it, so I won't...versus...this has to go back to the library, chop to it" : ) Yarn is the same way, stash yarn is never as good as new in the store yarn.