Sunday, February 25, 2007
Right now it measures 10 1/2 inches long and 14 inches wide. I'm not as far as everyone else, but that's okay!!! I started late and had multiple false starts . . . hey, sounds like an artistic reflection of my life in general, doesn't it?
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Dieting is not a whimiscal hobby that I can take up and put away when it's convenient. I can't afford to do that anymore. The lie: I watch my weight. The truth: I watch it go UP but I'm not really taking the steps needed to get it down to a healthy level. And the fact it, I'm at an age and a hormone state where I can't get by with eating candy, potato chips, potato salad, french fries, or a bowl of ice cream.
I don't each much of that stuff anyway, and I don't drink any liquor at all, yet I'm still fat. The truth is my body is so temperamental lately, that I need to watch everything I eat. To keep a food journal. To prepare my own food instead of constantly eating out. Restaurants are so convenient in my high-stress life. But I can't do that. I can't afford it anymore - either the expense or the weight.
I also can't afford to just go to Weight Watchers just when the urge (or the frustation level) hits me. I will go every week - on Saturday morning to the 8:00 meeting. There's a woman there named Cristina leading it who went from 289 lbs down to 120 lbs. It wasn't easy for her, it took a lot of commitment and it wasn't an instant success. It took a long time, but she stuck with it. She's darling. She's funny. She's Southern. And she is all about telling the truth to herself. I need to start telling the truth to myself, and facing up to the fact that I use food as an emotional outlet. It's just as unhealthy to overeat as is smoking, drinking and all the other bad habits I don't have and never have had.
So that's the truth. I'm fat, but I'm going to do my damndest to change. At 5'3", every extra pound really SHOWS. I'm going to start wearing my pedometer again. I need to somehow get in 10,000 steps per day - whether that's accomplished through formal exercise, or walking, I'm going to move more. At my job, I don't move at all which is part of the problem. I need to get out and WALK on my lunch hour. Now that spring is coming, I can probably do that again.
So that's the plan everyone, and feel free to remind me and hold me accountable if you don't hear about my healthy eating and exercising habits for a while - if I don't mention it, I've probably fallen off the wagon again and need to be hauled back on!!!! Seriously.
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Here is what I'm currently working on knitting-wise. Back to the beginning on the Ocean Waves "Not a Poncho" project brought to you by Jane Thornley.
All week, I've been knitting and re-knitting the same beginning 5 inches of the "Not a Poncho." The problem? I can't find just the right shade of gray to begin the work. I either end up with yarn that is too light or too dark. Did you know how many shades of gray there are and how hard it is to find just the right shade?
The Spring Sweater on the list above is not anything I've started yet, but it's in my mind. I am going to eventually start a short sleeve Spring sweater. I have some yarn in mind . . . but that's a whole nother story. I'll tell you more about it once I start it and find the right pattern for it.
I've been doing a lot of reading on Jane Thornley's website. If you go to Jane Thornley's website (see link at right), you can not only learn more about her Knitalong with the Not A Poncho project, but you can also read about her coming Fall knitting trip to Italy. She calls the knitting adventure "Knitaly." And after viewing her details about the "Knitaly" trip to Florence in October 2007, I sure wish I could go!! It sound wonderful. Laura and I were pining about it tonight on the phone. Of course, we can't afford to go, but two knitting girls can dream, can't they?
Sunday, February 18, 2007
I went to knitting today, and it only made my mood worse. I saw Laura's "Ocean Waves/Not a Poncho" and it may me even more dissatisfied with mine - I don't like the "redone" version either. It looks too flashy and yes, I know I'm flashy, but I like Laura's much better. Her subtle, classy color selection is what I'm after. As much as I usually dislike blue, maybe I'm craving the boring colors, i.e. blue, white, etc. because I need calm in my life. It's hard to say.
I like Laura's. I may start yet a third time and try to stick with her color scheme - I don't like where mine is going. It's too un-oceanic!!! Then again, maybe I should just hang up the needles for a while and not knit anything. I'm in one of those moods where I feel unartistic, uninspired and just frustrated with everything I try to do. I think I need to go clean something - do some therapeutic cleaning. That's probably what I should do - sort out my messy house and wash some floors or toilets or something.
You can go to Laura's blog and see her current work in progress. It's really beautiful in person.
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Left: First Version I attempted
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
This is the project I started in Alie's Freeform class in February of last year. So it's come full circle - starting and ending in February. I often do this - complete projects out of season! But then the nice thing about it is, I put it away in the closet and get it out again when the new season begins and I then feel blessed with something handmade to wear when that season finally rolls around.
I was just thinking the other day, with this cold weather hitting us, that I feel so soft, warm and comfortable in my handknit socks, scarves, and sweaters. That's why I've been selfishly knitting for myself so much lately. When I wear things I made, I just feel nurtured all day. Weird but true. It's a form of self-nurturing that is really reassuring. Now if I could find others who appreciate my knitting as much as I do myself, then maybe I'd start crafting more gifts. Ah well, here's a Valentine's gift for myself - a completed vest. I LOVE Freeform.
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
I'm to the moon (remember Jackie Gleason's Honeymooner's show anyone?). I loved it.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
This project somehow puts me in mind of another project I wanted to make several years ago and never got around to doing, the Shardigan. It's not the same at all, don't get me wrong, but I think you could wear them in similar circumstances. It would be great for wearing as a wrap during cooler spring weather, or taking a walk on a cool summer night evening (preferably along the beach, right?), with a short sleeve shirt underneath.
If you are interested at all in participating in this Knitalong, go to Jane Thornley's knitalong page and begin on what is now page 4. It started around the middle of January, but you can join in at any time. After exploring her website, I already want to get her book when it comes out!